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The Plutonium Files: US Government tests radiation on citizens

    Before the atomic bomb was dropped on Hiroshima and Nagasaki, doctors in the U.S. were experimenting on their people injecting them with plutonium and irradiating them. Only the people never knew or gave consent. The U.S. has tested radiation and atomic radiation on citizens for decades during the cold war. They have conducted these experiments to understand the effects of radiation and radioactive contamination on the human body.

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     I discovered something called the Plutonium Files and the book is difficult to get and an expensive read. It talks about the period in 1945 when the U.S. was getting ready to launch the first atomic bomb. The book relates the stories of those who were injected with radiation by the United States Atomic Energy Commission and the Manhattan project.

      18 men, women and children were injected between 1945 and 1947 and none of them knew what was being done to them nor gave informed consent. They were chosen because it was believed (Or so they claimed) the people were mortally ill. Though many lived years after the experiment. There were other experiments going on with radiation too:

• Nashville, Tennessee pregnant women were given radioactive cocktails-Vanderbilt University
• Prisoners from Washington and Oregon had their testicles irradiated
• University of Cincinnati irradiated 200 people over 15 years
• 74 boys at Dickensian State school fed oatmeal with radioactive iron or calcium. Homeless or unwanted boys
• University of Chicago, one of three sites for plutonium injections
• University of Chicago fed strontium and cesium to 102 people in solutions with Argonne National Laboratory

     All these were done to the people without consent. While developing the atomic bomb as a weapon the doctors in the United States who participated violated the Hippocratic oath, the Nuremberg Code the American Medical Association guidelines, and US Government Regulations. (1) The people used in the experiments according to author Eileen Welsome, “were the poor, the powerless and the sick—the very people who count on the government to protect them.” A collaborator on the project (Clarence Lushbaugh) told Welsome the director in Cincinnati Eugene Saenger picked the people from the ‘slums’ because, “these persons don’t have any money and they’re Black and they are poorly washed.” (2)

     Examples of the judgement of the medical staff deciding to administer the radiation is as follows:

A man in a car accident in Oakridge, Tennessee the medical staff label him elderly and in poor health. The staff did not expect him to live that long, or so they stated. He was 55 and other than partially blind was in good condition. He lived another 8 years with the radiation in his blood stream, died of a heart attack.

 Another subject Albert Stevens from San Francisco, California was injected at University of California hospital. They said he had terminal cancer, turns out he was misdiagnosed and lived with radiation in his blood for 21 more years.

Then there was Eda Schultz Charlton, a 49-year-old who went to the University of Rochester hospital. She was not terminally ill, even not seriously ill. But she was injected with plutonium. Over the next few years, she suffered with depression, fatigue, arthritis, nausea, spasms, and other illnesses. She had a file with 314 pages of doctor’s reports. Her doctor Dr. Christine Waterhouse was recruited by Dr, Samuel Bassett the overseer of the plutonium injections. She cared for Eda for 29 more years, Eda lived 37 more years. Dr. Waterhouse never told her she was injected with plutonium.

      The experiments remained secret until 1993, when President Clinton ordered a congressional investigation. In 1995 the reports came down, refusing to blame those who injected their patients. Clinton spoke out against the passive report saying, “the actions failed both the test of our national values and the test of humanity.” No one paid attention, two hours later the O.J. verdict was in and that was the louder noise.

1. Longworth, R.C., (1999), Injected! (Review of the Plutonium Files), Sagepub, https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/pdf/10.2968/055006016
2. Welsome, Eileen, (1999), The Plutonium Files: America’s Secret Medical Experiments During the Cold War, Delacorte Press
3. Moss, William, and Roger Eckhardt. (1995). "The human plutonium injection experiments." Los Alamos Science. 23: 177-233.
4. Photo One: www.allthatsinteresting.com

The Hook of Rejection: What do I do?

Rejection is defined by Cambridge dictionary is:

The act of refusing to accept, use, or believe someone or something:

The government's rejection of the plans is a setback for us.

It is also the act of refusing to be involved with another, in business, friendship and romantic relationships.

      Rejection can make you feel:

      It can cause great pain.  It creates a wound as deep as a knife piercing your heart. When I am using tarot cards, the three of swords is a good depiction.

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     It demonstrates the pain, almost betrayal feeling of the rejection.  Good therapy has this to say about rejection, “According to research, the same brain pathways that are activated by physical pain are also activated by social pain, or rejection. Receptor systems in the brain also release natural painkillers (opioids) when an individual experiences social pain, the same as when physical pain is experienced.: (1) As far as the tarot goes, even though the depiction is severe there is an understanding that it is temporary, or this too shall pass. It is an event not a destination.

     It now has a psychological name, Rejection sensitive dysphoria (RSD) is an intense emotional response caused by the perception that you have disappointed others in your life and that, because of that disappointment, they have withdrawn their love, approval, or respect. (2)

      In real life the pain can feel unbearable. When I first got sober and had a disappointment in a friendship my sponsor told me to sit through the pain, don’t act on anything, talk to friends, and write about it. She also said if I did that, it would never be that bad again. She was right. I have experienced pain or rejection, but now I understand it and it is not as deep as it was the first time in sobriety.

       It can cause symptoms like those experienced with PTSD. Rejection can lead to depression, especially in adolescence. The trauma can affect people psychologically. Children who feel rejected by one or both parents can find it difficult to succeed with relationships and in life generally. The fear they have of being rejected can trigger a response in which they refuse to be vulnerable. They will not want to risk rejection. OR….

     It can also create a catch 22 pattern. This occurs when a person fears rejection and unwittingly sets up the situations that create it. It is evidenced a person gets involved with someone who is unavailable or falls in love too quickly. Then when the inevitable situation arises where they perceive rejection, it reaffirms their worst fears. It creates feelings of unworthiness, leading to behaviors that are destructive. An example of this is going from one bad relationship to another, hoping this one will save you, or be your soulmate.  When really you are creating the same situations over and over. For a brief period in the beginning of a new relationships you have hope. This time will be different, then something happens, you feel rejected, and the process starts over again.  Scientist Albert Einstein stated, Insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.” (2)  

         Eating disorders and self-harming behaviors like cutting can also manifest from rejection. It can also aggravate situations that result in extreme anxiety. Abuse in intimate relationships can result from rejection or just the fear of rejection. People have murdered other people, fearing they would be rejected.

        Now that I have said all that there is a solution. I am a spiritual person, so my solutions are spiritual in nature. In this case it is self-love, or the desire for self-preservation. We are after all spiritual beings having a human experience. I will go into self-love more in-depth in another video. This video will reveal my journey of self-love in this situation based on my work in recovery within a 12-step program. 

         As I stated the first time, I encountered my “peak rejection” experience in the first three months of my sobriety. It was not someone I was in love with but slightly dependent on.  I had a confidant in those early difficult days. I spoke with him nightly; I came to rely on him. The relationship was plutonic, and I was ok with that. Until he suggested he was not really liking sobriety and he was going to start drinking again.  I was so devastated and feared losing his company. I was not well put together myself at that point. I felt as if I would die, like it was a knife pierced my heart. I thought perhaps I should go drink with him.  Luckily, I called my sponsor, and she pulled me down to earth. Basically saying, “You are going to give up your sobriety for a guy you don’t know well, that wants to go drink?”. I realized how absurd it sounded and asked what I could do about it. What could I do about this horrible thing that was killing me? She gave me the following suggestions:

• First sit still and do nothing-tell that to a squirming mass of nerves
• Go to an AA meeting and talk about it
• Call people and talk about it
• Write about it
• Exercise
• Get enough sleep and eat well
• Pray and meditate

     She said the feelings would not kill me, and once I went all the way through them, they would never be that deep or scaring again. The most profound suggestion for me was to sit through the feelings and experience them. Like I said I thought they would kill me. Every day got easier, I never heard from him again, and I stayed sober. Though I have experienced great pain in sobriety it has never been that deep, and I have always known what to do with it.

       There is another issue besides the ones I outlined, an emotional one. I call it the Hook of rejection. Have you ever dated anyone and thought, they are o.k. but I am not that interested, or you have just plain taken their inventory? Then they break the relationship off, “I am sorry I am not feeling it.” Suddenly you feel rejection, disbelief, and outrage, when at first you didn’t even care for them. You say things, I was just starting to care for him/her. You feel ‘not good enough’ and feel as if you want to keep the relationship going. That rejection creates an illusionary hook that makes the person more desirable. You may here yourself say, “If he/she just knew who I really am, or I will show her/him.” I have read for people that become despondent over situations like these. It affects their self-esteem creating almost a victim mentality. No one will ever get me or love me…. That is extreme but I have seen it happen. So, when the person you don’t like says its not working. Say thank you and move on. They have created space for someone you will like and whom with you will be able to develop a meaningful relationship.

       One of the greatest things I got out of that experience is that feelings cannot kill you, I am capable of living through them, recovering and going on with life. This sounds a little dramatic I know, but I have spoke to men and women who are sure the feelings will kill them, and they must act on them. So, they call or text the beloveds 30 times or more in a day. The stalk their beloved’s social media pages, sleep with people they don’t like, spend money they don’t have and various other self-destructive behaviors. Then they still feel bad and have created worse issues for themselves and the people around them. Again, there is real recovery. I personally did not formally date until I was 9 months sober, so by that time I healed the wound and was not dragging it around with me. Before recovery this was my normal pattern of behavior.

       There are more complex spiritual issues around some of these behaviors. These are my experiences in reading people for the last 25 years, and in my own recovery. For me when I drank, I was a flight person. You know flight or fight? I would sabotage or leave relationships when they looked like they were going south. Because my thinking was so distorted, that seemed to happen frequently in my estimation. So, me sitting still through real painful feelings did lead to recovery. I am a spiritual reader, so if you would like to talk to me about these or other issues, connect with at the link below.

1. Staff, (2021), Rejection, Good Therapy, https://www.goodtherapy.org/learn-about-therapy/issues/rejection
2. Dodson, William M.D., L.F-APA, (2019), [Self-Test] Could You Have Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria? Attitude Mag, https://www.additudemag.com/rejection-sensitive-dysphoria-adhd-symptom-test/
3. Tweed, Carter, (2019), Einstein’s insanity quote, alternate memories, https://www.alternatememories.com/historical-events/people/einsteins-insanity-quote
4. Photo one- Rider Waite Tarot can be purchased at angelicvisions-healing.com  
5. Staff, (2021), Rejection, Cambridge Dictionary, https://dictionary.cambridg

Secret Cities and Locations in the U.S.

    There are in the world approximately 42 secret communities. There many of secret or private facilities in the U.S. Most are secret for military purposes, one is a presidential retreat no listed on a map, and one a possible U.F.O. containment area. In this blog I will address 3 of them with more to follow.

    A famous one is Los Alamos, New Mexico a very beautiful and pristine town... It is in the mountains Northwest of Santa Fe, New Mexico. I love Los Alamos and spent much time there when I lived in Santa Fe. Historically it was formed in 1942, when the Department of War was looking for a very private spot to create a secret weapon and seized the land under the law of eminent domain.  The people who lived there were paid for it at fair market value, and the Los Alamos National Laboratory was born. It was the site where they developed the atomic bomb. (1)

    Los Alamos was very secretive, and the people who came to live there- scientists, support staff and their families were monitored.  Their telephone calls and mail screened to make sure the location and any information they had remained in the facility. When shipments of goods came in they were labeled as ordinary items to so to keep secret what was coming into the community.

     Probably the most famous resident of Los Alamos was J. Robert Oppenheimer, the physicist that developed the atomic bomb. It was Oppenheimer and Lieutenant General Leslie Groves that requested a shielded location and well stocked laboratory to develop their weapon. Originally the personnel in the community were to be commissioned U.S. Army but Oppenheimer was underweight, with a chronic cough. He could not pass physical but did follow the process from beginning to end. So, he was a hands-on developer and could ferret out issues quickly. (2)

    Another interesting point about Oppenheimer as I digress is that he was affiliated loosely with the communists in the U.S. When I say loosely, I mean is girlfriend Jean Tatlock had left leaning parents. Oppenheimer supported left progressive/socialist agendas by donating money and attending meetings. His wife Katherine was a former communist member. Many of his associates were also communists. The F.B.I. opened a file on him in 1941, and he was under investigation by the F.B.I. though out his time at Los Alamos. He left Los Alamos in late 1945 for Caltech in California. (3)

      The atomic bomb was first tested near Alamogordo, New Mexico on July 16, 1945.  Later it was dropped on Hiroshima, Japan on August 6, 1945, and a second bomb was dropped on Nagasaki, Japan on August 9, 1945. (4) Thus, ending the war in the Pacific arena. Los Alamos also developed the Hydrogen bomb in 1940’s.

      Today the town is not private, I have driven up that two-lane road to the top of the hill and in to this lovely little town many times, it is beautiful, clean and welcoming. The Los Alamos National Laboratory is a hub of scientific research and development. It works with integrated nanotechnologies, IT in algorithms for computational science or computer science, nuclear research, global security and much more. You can visit the facility today, they have the wonderful Bradbury Museum for all things ‘Manhattan Project’.

     Oak Ridge Tennessee is another secret WWII town, it is just west of Knoxville, Tennessee. The University of Chicago created the Clinton Laboratories to perform advance nuclear experiments. Later the name was changed to the Oak Ridge National Laboratory. The Oak Ridge National Laboratory land was purchased by Brig. General Leslie Groves, 59,000 acres in 1942.

      Enrico Fermi was a world class physicist who worked with Oppenheimer at Los Alamos. The set up in Oak Ridge was like Los Alamos in that there were guards and security to enter the town. When you hired you took a lie detector to work there. Fermi was the first scientist in the U.S. to conduct a nuclear fission experiment in 1939 when he was at Columbia University. (5) He received a Nobel Prize in physics for finding the existence of new radioactive elements produced by neutron irradiation. (6) Interesting side note, he was one of the first to warn military leaders about the potential issues with nuclear energy after is own work in the 1920’s and 1930’s.

       The experiments Fermi did at Columbia with producing fast neutrons created the chain reaction for a nuclear reactor. The first one assembled by Fermi and his team was the CP-1. This lead to the X10 reactor that was installed at Oak Ridge. This nuclear reactor used enriched uranium to produce plutonium. Fermi’s team assembled the first reactor designed for continuous activity. (7)

   After World War II the laboratory became a research facility. Today it is sponsored by the Department of Energy and administered or ran by U-Battelle, LLC. In the 1950’s it made portable nuclear generators for heat and electricity that was sent to remote military bases. Today it conducts a wide array of chemical experiments, studies nuclear medicine, and created a land data base for population count with Landscan that supplies the federal and state governments with up to the date population counts. This is just some of the vast work of the facility. The town is separate from the operating facility. You can tour the facilities…It is a part of the Knoxville metro area and is often referred to as “Atomic City”.  These secret cities though not exactly like the fictional Eureka, Oregon, they are company towns of geniuses.

     Another secret location in this segment is in the beautiful Blue Ridge mountains in Virginia. It is called the Mountain Weather Emergency Operations Center. They call it a civilian command center, it really is a command center for the government agency FEMA, or Federal Emergency Management Agency. Officials prefer the name ‘High Point Special Facility’. In case of a national emergency the highest-ranking officials both civilian and military will be evacuated there.

     The history for this facility goes back to the 1800’s when it was a weather station. The more recent history was during the cold war, when there was threat of nuclear attack from the Soviet Union. In 1958 a compound was completed inside the mountain. It is a facility that is set up to house the president and top officials in case of a nuclear or other attack on the white house.

      It took 3 decades from 1938-1969 to complete the compound that exists underground today. They have done experiments to determine how it would withstand a nuclear attack. There are ponds underground for drinking water that are carved from solid rock, and ponds to cool the extensive computer equipment. There are sleeping quarters for several hundred people, and a radio and television studio was set up to broadcast from the facility. There are at least 20 offices set up in the complex protected with concrete in case of nuclear attack. There are Diesel engines for electricity and refrigerators used to store food. They have a cafeteria and recreation area along with a hospital that has a crematorium within the mountain. The government officials and president would continue to operate from that location while the threat goes on. After 9-11 many high-ranking officials were taken to Mountain Weather facility. To this day it is still part of an evacuation plan.

     It is in a heavily wooded area and almost invisible to the outside world. Time magazine wrote:

Mount Weather is a virtually self-contained facility. Aboveground, scattered across manicured lawns, are about a dozen buildings bristling with antennas and microwave relay systems. An on-site sewage- treatment plant, with a 90,000-gal.-a-day capacity, and two tanks holding 250,000 gal. of water could last some 200 people more than a month; underground ponds hold additional water supplies. (8)

    On maps the area that spans two (London and Clarke) counties is listed as United States of America, on the location. In the FEMA phone directory, it is simply SF, or special facility.  

     FEMA uses the facility for 8 departments:

1. Virginia National Processing Center to help victims begin to recover from a disaster
2. Disaster Finance Center which is the hub for disaster relief aid. They project needs and pay the relief monies to victims
3. Disaster Information Systems Clearinghouse-keeps computer records for all communications and equipment needed
4. Disaster Personnel Operations Division-it is the human resources that recruits, trains and sends out personnel to aid victims
5. Agency Logistics Center-provides inventory information for 3 different relief centers
6. The Conference and Training Center-They provide all the training for personnel
7. Information Technology Services Division- provides all computer support for the agency and missions.
8. Weather Management Division-which operates and maintains the facility 

      This facility is top secret. From the historic developer of the atomic bomb in Los Alamo, New Mexico, the nuclear reactors of Oak Ridge National Laboratory to the completely secret Mt. Weather Emergency Operations Center these are only three of these secret cities in the U.S. There are more to come.

1. Los Alamos From Below, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uY-u1qyRM5w
2. The Town that never was, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9LLzBWQY7m0
3. Oppenheimer’s Letter of Response on Letter Regarding the Oppenheimer Affair, http://www.nuclearfiles.org/menu/library/correspondence/oppenheimer-robert/corr_oppenheimer_1954-03-04.htm
4. The Atomic Bombing of HiroshimaArchived 2016-03-03 at the Wayback Machine., U.S. Department of Energy, Office of History and Heritage Resources.
5. Anderson, H.L.; Booth, E.; Dunning, J.; Fermi, E.; Glasoe, G.; Slack, F. (16 February 1939). "The Fission of Uranium". 
6. Guerra, Francesco; Robotti, Nadia (December 2009). "Enrico Fermi's Discovery of Neutron-Induced Artificial Radioactivity: The Influence of His Theory of Beta Decay". Physics in Perspective. 
7. Rettig, Polly (December 8, 1975). "X-10 Reactor, Graphite Reactor". National Register of Historic Places. Retrieved November 11,2012.
8. Gup, Ted (June 24, 2001). "Civil Defense Doomsday Hideaway". Time. Berryville, Virginia. Retrieved November 26, 2017
9. Weapons of Mass Destruction, https://www.globalsecurity.org/wmd/facility/mt_weather.htm